If it was meant to be,

there would be no question, so do what you need to do, because that is what you will do anyway… I need to let go of control, and connect at your level, if I am going to connect at all.

Then I need to let go of hope and just be in the moment and own that I am lonely.  I need to let my fears of being abandoned go and only focus on gratitude.  Live with an attitude of plenitude and trust that the universe will bring me exactly what I need when I need it.

I am free, I deserve to be.  I am happy, I feel happy, really…  I was just blinded by this craving to love you, to please you.  Love you the way I thought you needed to be loved… But now I can see that I was trying too hard.  I was TRYING to help you and that is not what you needed me to do.

So…

do what you need to do.

You don’t need rescuing or fixing, healing or neediness.  You just wanted to be with me without pressure or expectation, without judgment or invitation.

I saw ways that I could give to you in order to be loved, and I get now, that I can and will be loved just for being me.  I don’t have to impress anyone, or try so hard.  Like you said, if it was meant to be… there will be no question.  The End.