Yesterday, as I road my bike home, I peddled past a deer that had been hit by a car and was immobile, and yet still alive on the side of the road. I at first saw it’s doey eyes staring up at me, and thought nothing of it as I peddled, but then soon realized that it was injured, I stopped my bike, got off, and walked until I was about 6 feet away. Immediately I started to cry. I felt helpless and realized that I could not do a thing for this deer. And when I looked at it, I felt it’s surrender to the situation. It was where it was. It was not bellowing or squeemish. It must have been there a while, and probably so exhausted it didn’t have fear anymore.
I couldn’t stop myself from crying. How helpless and sad this was. What suffering it was going through, and yet, it was going through it. Who was I to paint right or wrong on that deer’s life path. Do I find a way to slit it’s throat so it doesn’t suffer? No, I can’t do that I’d feel worse. Is it bad to feel worse? No, it is good to feel all things, and come to terms with it. All I could do was walk away.
Deer is akin to me. I feel a gentle calm when I think of deer. Deer is akin to the earth. I feel the same when I think of the earth. The other day I had the same feelings when I heard for the first time about some of the tragic realities that the earth is surrendering to. Our professor’s required readings made me want to cry… and all I could think of doing was walking away. Some things I have to surrender to, as this is a natural transition of humanitary and planitary realities. But maybe I could take on a Plenitude attitude.
– Reduce work time, and allow more work for people
– Accept living in a smaller, cheaper and less consumerism lifestyle
– Do things myself, grow my own vegetables
– Low cost eco-friendly houses
– Maybe this is savvy economics, and would allow me to live better with less money
Sharing and bartering, re-use and re-sale. A classmate of mine loves this theory, keeping it more simple, and I’m moved by her suggestion. Social capital as a more abundant way to “reclaim a human scale to our economy, take responsibility for our life styles and treat one another and our planet with the respect we all deserve.”
Rather than just surrendering, I am going to do something about it. I also plan on biking to work now. I look forward to this more sustainable lifestyle, and look forward to sharing my thoughts on this on my blog.
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